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I'm bouncing off the walls again (whoa oh)
I'm looking like a fool again (whoa oh)
I threw away my reputation
One more song for the radio station
I'm bouncing off the walls again (whoa oh)
I'm looking like a fool again (whoa oh)
Waking up on the bathroom floor
Pull myself back together just to fall once more
And my heart's beating out of my chest
And this town is still making me sick
And every penny from my last paycheck
I've blown it on you
I'm bouncing off the walls again (whoa oh)
And I'm looking like a fool again (whoa oh)
So go ahead and take a picture
And hang it up so you can tear me down
I don't care
Cause I'm still here
And I've got nothing left to lose
With all the years I wasted on you
Momma and Daddy's got the best cocaine
Ritalin's never gonna feel the same
Twenty-four hours on an empty brain
I got my finger on the trigger and your in my way
I'm bouncing off the walls again (whoa oh)
And I'm looking like a fool again (whoa oh)
I threw away my reputation
One more song for the radio station
I'm bouncing off the walls again
And I'm looking like a fool again
I'm bouncing off the walls again
And I'm looking like a fool again
I'm bouncing off the walls again
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[Sep. 25th, 2004|05:00 pm] |
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I'm bouncing off the walls again (whoa oh)
I'm looking like a fool again (whoa oh)
I threw away my reputation
One more song for the radio station
I'm bouncing off the walls again (whoa oh)
I'm looking like a fool again (whoa oh)
Waking up on the bathroom floor
Pull myself back together just to fall once more
And my heart's beating out of my chest
And this town is still making me sick
And every penny from my last paycheck
I've blown it on you
I'm bouncing off the walls again (whoa oh)
And I'm looking like a fool again (whoa oh)
So go ahead and take a picture
And hang it up so you can tear me down
I don't care
Cause I'm still here
And I've got nothing left to lose
With all the years I wasted on you
Momma and Daddy's got the best cocaine
Ritalin's never gonna feel the same
Twenty-four hours on an empty brain
I got my finger on the trigger and your in my way
I'm bouncing off the walls again (whoa oh)
And I'm looking like a fool again (whoa oh)
I threw away my reputation
One more song for the radio station
I'm bouncing off the walls again
And I'm looking like a fool again
I'm bouncing off the walls again
And I'm looking like a fool again
I'm bouncing off the walls again
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[Aug. 21st, 2004|12:45 am] |
| [x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x] | </td>| What's your name? ::: | molly burd komlenic | | Birthplace ::: | state college(its a town with a college in it, NOT a college), pennsylvania | | Age ::: | 15 | | Age you act ::: | depends on what mood im in | | Current location ::: | the office of my downstairs | | Eye color ::: | depends on what im wearing | | Hair color ::: | brown | | Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: | righty, im working on the ambidextrous thing though | | Zodiac sign? ::: | taurus | | Height? ::: | 5'7 | | [x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x] | </td>| Your heritage/nationality ::: | ok, here goes... serbian,slovenian,scottish,welsch, and german | | Your hair ::: | just below the shoulders, long bangs, and thick | | Your fears ::: | spiders, getting hurt (emotionally, not physically), and not succeeding in life | | Your perfect room ::: | BRIGHT BRIGHT colors on everything and funky patterns with a 60s kinda feel. huge bed and lots of big comforters and oversized pillows. tv, computer, and mega stereo system | | What you practically do in a day ::: | run, get online, eat, go downtown, sleep read, box, and breathe? | | [x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x] | </td>| Words you overuse ::: | awesome and gay (i dont like to use that word out of actual context but i think i do too often) | | Phrases you overuse ::: | geez louise, holy shit, and no way! | | Your first thought when you wake up ::: | what time is it? | | Your greatest accomplishment ::: | earning my first degree black belt after 7 years of training | | Something you want to do ::: | bungee jump | | [x] Part 4 -- This or that [x] | </td>| Pepsi or Coke ::: | coke | | McDonald's or Burger Kings ::: | burger king | | Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: | do i have to? well if so thenchristina aguilara | | Chocolate or vanilla ::: | vanilla | | Adidas or Nike ::: | adidas | | Black or white ::: | black | | Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: | bills | | Burgers or hot dogs ::: | burgers, hot dogs gross me out | | Egypt or France ::: | ooooooooooh, egypt. hot and sunny and full of sweet history | | Rock or rap ::: | rock by far | | [x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x] | </td>| Smoke ::: | never | | Cuss ::: | more often than i should | | Sing well ::: | i wish | | Sing in the shower ::: | every time, loud and off key | | Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: | sometimes when im home alone, but i dont think i realize it. | | Believe in yourself ::: | when i need to | | Like taking these longass surveys? ::: | when im bored | | Play an instrument ::: | flute, REPRESENT | | Want to go to college? ::: | definitely | | Want to get married? ::: | when i find the right person, sure | | Want to have children? ::: | 1 child, adopted | | Think you're a health freak? ::: | not when it comes to eating, but exercise is always good | | Get along with your parents ::: | my mom, but not my dad. people say we're too much alike | | Get along with your siblings? ::: | sometimes. for an 11 year old girl who's been PMSing since day one, she can be ok sometimes | | Think you're popular ::: | i have a lot of friends and i love them. but popular isnt what id call it. id say..... easy to get along with | | [x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x] | </td>| Gone out of state ::: | yes | | Drank alchohal ::: | yes | | Smoke ::: | nope | | Get high ::: | nope | | Done any drugs ::: | only OTC | | Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: | ew, oreos. i only eat oreos parent trap style with shauna mae | | Been on stage ::: | yes | | Gone skinny dipping ::: | no, but id like to eventually | | Been dumped ::: | yep | | Dyed your hair ::: | yes sir | | Stolen anything ::: | not gonna lie, yes | | [x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x] | </td>| Craziest ::: | ummmmm... 2 way tie between tini and brent | | Loudest ::: | brint, megan, candy, or ali | | Most shy ::: | oh man, i would say scotti but she isnt anymore. i dont hang around shy people that much | | Blondest ::: | marissa | | Smartest ::: | jasmine, no offense to anyone she just is | | Kindest ::: | kristen | | Best personality ::: | sorry. cant say. all my friends have best personalities in different ways | | Most talented ::: | jasmine at piano, tini at field hockey (she just made varsity!) | | Best singer ::: | meghan | | Most ghetto ::: | hahaha... megan overby | | Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: | stacy | | Pain in the ass ::: | not gonna say. thats just mean | | The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: | ummmmmm... most often? brint or chris | | Funniest ::: | matt, chris, or tini | | Best person for advice ::: | candace | | Dependable ::: | scotti and shauna | | Trustworthy ::: | i have trust issues... i never trust anyone entirely but my mom | | Druggie ::: | thats mean too | | Most likely to end up in jail ::: | ditto | | Person you've known the longest ::: | campy | | [x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x] | </td>| Last dream ::: | too long to explain. but i was in the waffle shop and i lived there | | Last nightmare ::: | it wa sone of those ones where you really think youre awake, like, it feels really real. i was at tinis and someone called and said my mom got killed and i went to her funeral | | Car ride ::: | with tini and my mom on the way home from the worst movie ever with the 2 best people ever :) | | Last time you cried ::: | 2 or 3 days ago | | Last movie seen ::: | little black book. shoot me now | | Last movie rented ::: | thirteen | | Last book read ::: | whats in a name? by ellen wittlinger | | Last word said ::: | her | | Last curse word said ::: | shit | | Last time you laugh ::: | when i was watching Monk with my mom | | Last phone call ::: | to brint in the movie theatre | | Last CD played ::: | the format, interventions and lullabys | | Last song you listened to ::: | early november, i dont know the name | | Last annoyance ::: | my dogs | | Last IM ::: | to carly | | Last weird encounter ::: | i dont know... | | Last person you hugged ::: | brint | | Last person you yelled at ::: | does my shoe count? if not then does my dog count? if not then i guess megan about wegman's | | Last time you wore a skirt ::: | wednesday | | Last time you've been evil ::: | define evil for me | | Sarcastic? ::: | it happens too often to keep track | | Last time you fought with your parents ::: | yesterday with my dad about how i'm never home anymore... wonder why | | Last time you wished upon a star ::: | at ali's party w/ megan and grace | | Played Truth or Dare ::: | cant remember | | Spent quality time alone ::: | sunday night | | [x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x] | </td>| Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: | yes | | Do you feel lonely ::: | not at the moment, but now ill dwell on it | | Ever TP'd someone's house ::: | hahahaha YES | | How about egging someone's house ::: | not yet but the night is young | | Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: | ummmm.. i dont know you | | Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: | not my style | | Yo Momma ::: | no, YO MAMA | | Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: | yes | | What do you think of George Bush? ::: | he's an awful anti life hick | | Any secret fetishes? ::: | not really... i like nice teeth and light eyes with dark hair... but im not obsessed | | Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: | not really | | How many languages do you speak? ::: | 3 including my not so great german | | Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: | not really, my fingers dont seem to get tired that often | | Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) ::: | well, im still bored... so no i guess |
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damn, thats one long motha trucka...
peach, love, and other fuzzy things (stole that one from my cousin),
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[Aug. 19th, 2004|05:58 pm] |
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so it's kind of petty, but i decied i wasnt that fond of my livejournal user name. not because it sucks or anything, i just wanted a different one. so i'll be updating on there from now on. everything will be the same except the name. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) break__my__fall |
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[Aug. 15th, 2004|05:04 pm] |
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^^ oh yes, all of those apply^^
so friday night i went to ali's party and hung out with a bunch of different people. it was so much fun but i didn't get to talk to ali as much as i would have liked to. it was cool though because i DID get to talk to megan and grace for like, an hour and a half out at the fire after most everyone else was gone and/or asleep. that was great because apparently they're going through a lot of the same stuff i am. i'm glad that i have met so amny new people this summer and i can learn something from all of them. (totally and completely cheesy, but just as true)
i am kind of scared though. scared because i dont know if i made the right choice on where i'm to live this upcoming school year. scared because i dont know who i want to be when the time comes to see people whom i havent talked to in 3 months. scared that with the way these last few weeks have been going, i might have to deal with all this by myself. and scared, most of all, to finally get all these unwanted emotions out of my system and present them to the people that they have come from. not fun.
on a happier note, jasmine and i went to dubois yesterday and stayed at the lakeside house of a family friend of ours. it was glorious. we got there and went swimming in the cold water and just as cold weather. kayaked (spelling?) around the lake on some random kayak we found. got hopelessly lost in this humungous gated community in which we were staying, on our way to the local mini mart. which, apparently, is where every teenager in the treasure lake communty works/hangs out. everyone else i saw within a 5 mile radius of the house was at least 50 or older. we watched i love the 80s strikes back and best week ever about a bazzillion times and ate sooooooo much. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, it was wonderful.
so now i'm home and eating gnocci that i made my dad stop for on the way home. if you've never had it i highly, highly recommend it. sooooooooooooooo good. yes, so hopefully i'll find something to occupy myself with tonight. if not actually going somewhere, maybe i'll be lucky enough to find something shiny on the ground to distract myself with for a few hours. oh state college how i loathe thee. blah
my sister is visiting my aunt in pittsburgh for the week. i wanted to go as well but my maternal figure is worried that i may "become attached and feel an obgligation to stay with those people you hang out with there" lets evalute that statement: she didnt use obligate correctly because i wouldnt feel obligated to stay, i would feel compelled to stay. not the same thing. secondly- i am already attached to pittsburgh so my going would just put me in a better mood than i've been in lately. and lastly- they are not just people i hang out with, theya re my cousins, friends, and love machines. hahahha brent, god i miss you all.
anyway. so friday i hung out with wes for a good bit at ali's party and found out that i have a kick ass biology class which is good because
1- i hate almost everything (except astronomy) that has to do with science.
and 2- because its first period and these people will deifnitely keep me awake.
my kick ass science class consists of wes, chris, gary, and josh. that may not seem like a lot to you, but fo me its like heaven. hahaha
ok well i'm working off of about 8 hours of sleep for the last 48 hours and i'm about at my limit. so i'd say its just about nap time.
sleep sweet all,
molkom |
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[Aug. 11th, 2004|08:22 pm] |
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so being home hasn't been quite as horrible as i had figured it would be. it's been more dull than aurora/chicago but what isn't? at least i get to see my friends which is totally choice. the second night i was home i went to ali's house and her, grace, bri, and i went downtown. it was a pretty worthless rip considering there was almost no one there and we were all pretty much broke. i did get to see nacho, dan, and tanner while i as there though which is definitely a plus on all accounts. we ended up going back to ali's house earlier than planned and we all made milkshakes and sat around watching tv for a while. then bri lef and ali and i decided to get crafty. we cut up construction paper and made flowers to stick to her ceiling. it looked totally boss. i like it.
then yesterday tini came over which was great because i hadnt seen her in almost 2 weeks. so we spent aout 2 hours talking about anything and everything and then we made up a game show with those new pringles that have the q&a things on them and ended up eating the whole tube. i made some coffee (which, partially thanks to meg, i am drinking like a crazy mofo) and we watched thirteen. then we stayed up til about 3 talking online, playing castles and mad gab. we had monkey bread for breakfast... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. and then went to the pool an di got to see tyler for the first time in well over 2 weeks... i <3 that kid. h made my day :)
so now im here and rather bored. oh well, it happens...
later gator |
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[Aug. 8th, 2004|08:37 pm] |
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i am home.well, geographically speaking, that is. i think my true home is somewhere with a starbucks on every corner and a taxi constantly at disposable...oh well.
i got to see my cousins band, blazers in june, play at the central fire hall last night. they were pretty kick ass live, i have to say. they were there with phylum, and switching lanes. switching lanes was good but phylum was a bit too loud and screamy for my taste. i met so many new people ther and i really liked them all! then today i went to a big burd, pardon the pun, family picnic at my uncle's house and got to see my new cousin terrin for the first time. my cousin jen, who is married with two kids and lives in florida, owns a jewelry making business and made me two absolutely gorgeous necklaces. i <3 them. she also invited e to come stay with her for a week next summer which would be totally choice because i love florida.
i think im experiencing meghan/aurora withdrawl. everything here just seems so boring. truth be told, i wasnt even excited o see my room. horrible, but true.
ok, enough of my rude, selfishness.
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[Aug. 6th, 2004|11:29 pm] |
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this last week has definitely been the best of my whole summer. it's been full of new experiences and stories that will be told many a time during these next few weeks.
last night i met charissa for the first time. an ordeal which, to be perfectly frank, i was very nervous for. meghan had been telling me that i may not like charissa because our personalities differed too much from one another. this was entirely too wrong. charissa is AWESOME. i LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE her. hahaha. anyways, later one shanon, meg, charissa, and i went downtown naperville and wandered amelessly about for a few hours, stopping simultaneously to take pictures of attractive boys and touristesque photo ops. as well as maksing a pit stop at starbucks for some frappucinos.
afterwards we all came back to meg's and watched tv for a few hours. after some time this routine became a bit dull. charissa and i decided upon a midnight tirp around the neighbnorhood jsut for kicks. shanon and meghan caved and sure enough, we found ourselves trotting around the neighborhood without a worry in the world or a light in the sky. the rest of our forbidden walk consisted of rabbit-chasing, picture-taking, and foot-killing. hahahah. after we got back we all settled in meg fell asleep and shortly there after charissa gave in to the power of fatigue. shanon and i stayed up and talked late into the night about a variety os thing, all wonderful of course!
after waking up discombobulated and frazzled meg informed me that we were going to the pool with shanon and mike around noon. no complaints here, i love all three of the things previously listed! their "pool" is a BEACH. not a real one, but it has a sloped entry coming from a huge sand area, 3 or 4 docks that go out into the water from the sides, and 2 islands in the middle of the deep end. it was wonderful. shanon and mike are so much fun to be with and im going to miss them so much!
later on meg and i walked to dominic's grocery store and got some starbucks and rented mickey blue eyes. the highlight of the trip back was getting honked at.... BY A TRAIN!!! hahahah it was glorious! when we got back we ate some dinner and brian called saying he was going to come over. when he got here we hung around in the basement for a while and i "had" to call chris so i could give meg and brian some alone time. i come back and they are GOING OUT!!! FINALLY. lord it only took 7 months.
all in all this has been an amazing trip and i realize now more than ever before, that meg and i could live together for months and never get on each others nerves. we both know what we want and we always have fun together. we both need alone time and we also both know when to give it to one another. same taste in music. great taste in friends. god, i really do think we were seperated at birth. i love her and im really going to miss her when im gone. i really dont think she understands that this vacation was exactly what i needed. i was having a good summer, but i was dealing with some hidden issues at the same time and my coming here really gave me time to enjoy some of my summer and find out some things about myself at the same time. thanks meg :)
well, im off to pack and get ready for the morning to come.
later gator,
molly burd |
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[Aug. 4th, 2004|09:37 pm] |
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today was pretty key. better than last night for sure. meg and i played some more cards and ate some great fried rice. we called around and gathered up some people (ok, jsut two) to go to the mall. can you believe that the closest mall to meg's house is only 5 minutes away and almost 4x the size of the nittany mall. this whole switched at birth thing isn't working for me anymore...
so after we arrived at the mall we met up with mike first. he is so nice! i like him a lot. we stopped in the bridal shop and meg picked out her wedding dress and is planning every detail already. then a little later on we found shanon and got smoothies. shanon and i spotted some rather attractive guys and decided we should sort of follow them/casually walk behind them just long enough to ask them for a picture. meg took two of them with me and shanon. we moved on, but apparently the guys hadn't, they stalked us. not the other way. i supposed we're just too darn irresistable for them ;) unfortunately we ran out of film just in time to see an extremelt hot guy with fabulous hair and some dude that begged us for money... darn
looking forward to tomorrow when i'll have my camera and an extra roll of film in downtown naperville with shanon and meg...
"heyy, we think you're hot. can we take your picture?"
WOO HOO!
best wishes, hugs and kisses,
molly burd |
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[Aug. 4th, 2004|04:12 am] |
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| Question time! | </td>| First: of course: Name: | molly burd komlenic | | Age: | 15 | | hair style: | long bangs that go off to the right and cover my right eve and just below shoulder length layered around the back | | do you have one or two eyes? and what color are they?: | two in reality, but only one in sense, i mean, theyre both totally shot. color... it depends on what im wearing.ostly green | | do you have all your body parts?: | yep. | | do you like those body parts?: | some, but not all | | If yes: what's your favorite part?: | my arms | | what about your toenails? Are they painted or not?: | yessirreebob, lime green. | | your fingernails? long/ short?: | in between, im trying "unsuccessfully) to grow them out | | do you wear contacts or glasses or neither?: | both, mostly contacts but i like my glasses too | | if you made a survey what would one of your questions be?: | if you could live anywhere in the world, where would you move to? | | do you like dogs?: | most def | | do you have dog?: | 2 actually. a black lab and a german shephard | | Cat?: | nope, yuck. | | can you drive?: | i am capable, yes. | | legally?: | not at all | | Are you legal (18): | no.... | | Are you an adult? (21): | ditto | | Have you had your golden birthday?: | not just yet | | What is your golden birthday?: | the year you turn the same age as your birthdate. | | Are you bored with my quiz yet?: | i was more bored before. | | ok.. Relationship stuff | </td>| do you have a boyfriend?: | not officially | | A girlfriend?: | not that i know of | | If yes: how long have you two been together?: | n/a | | If no: Have you ever had a boy/girl friend?: | yes | | If you don't have one.. I could hook you up with someone.would u like that?: | i'm more of a meet-someone-inperson-or-know-them-before-you-date-them kinda gal | | do you like dancing?: | yes! not very good at it, but love it like no other. | | Define 1st base: | the square foot of white canvas you run to after hitting a ball from homeplate | | 2nd: | the one you run to after 1st | | 3rd: | " " after 2nd | | and finally home and a homerun: | " " after 3rd... and the crowd goes WILD | | have you ever gotten home?: | who are you kidding? i'm a pro ;) | | where's the farthest you've made it?: | didnt i just answer that? | | have you ever kissed in a park?: | nope | | in a pool?: | nope | | on the beach?: | yes | | in your bedroom?: | nope | | Single people | </td>| do you like to dance?: | whoa, deja vou | | can you sing?: | i can, but not well | | do you have any talent?: | is martial arts a "talent"? | | how many boy/girl friends have you had?: | 9 | | Just Stuff | </td>| what color do you wear the most?: | wow, brown i suppose | | do you believe in love or lust?: | both, but neither have worked out well in the past | | what's more important: love or lust?: | love | | One or the other: | </td>| dollars vs. pesos: | definitely pesos | | peanut vs. plain: | plain | | snapple vs. kool-aid: | kool-aid! | | can you always get what you want?: | no. i dont really think its healthy if you can though | | Dell vs. Gateway: | dell | | PDA vs. blackberry: | well, PDA is ok, as long as you keep it subtle | | YES or NO | </td>| public displays of affection: | oh man, this is freaky, 2 cases of deja vou in one sleepless night. | | dancing in public..: | definitely! | | by yourself: | even better. then i can pick the music and turn it up so i can sing just as horribley as i dance and no one would never even know | | masterbating: | its fine for other people! | | gay marriages: | all for 'em | | Bush being president again: | nononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononon | | Kerry being president: | if it's between him and bush. GO KERRY! | | that's the end.. hope you enjoyed it!: | i did, you have my gratitude! |
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[Aug. 4th, 2004|03:14 am] |
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can't sleep. don't know why. i hate it. i cant stop myself from thinking about everything thats going on while im in chicago. about how when i come back, eveything will be dramatically different from the small town i left behind.
half of me wishes i could have just stayed there and let the change happen around me so i could get used to it and it would become my own personal novacane, making me the slightest bit more numb to pain everyday i stayed there. that way, when it was time to pack up, i wouldnt feel absolutely horrible or depressed, just numb. from head to toe.
the other half is so greatful to have had this opportunity to experience such an amazing city and all the wonderful people in it. but now i cant leave state college with no regrets. now i'll want to know what's been happening and how everything has been running while i have been gone. then i might even realize that i'd not only miss my friends, but also the town itself, however ubsurd that may sound coming from me.
i'm reading this book that meg lent me called Hard Love, by ellen wittlinger. it's totally depressing and absolutely fabulous at the same time. it's like the author researched me and then decided to publish her notes as my biography only to disguise it as a fictional novel for teens. (the only difference i can see is that the main character is a guy) basically, its about a boy who is beginning to realize that he doesnt know what he wants out of life. at all. period. then, in an unexpected twist of fate he finds someone who he totally falls for. only to find that he cannot have her. not then. not ever. i havent read the final 2 chapters yet, but as far as i can tell, there wont be a happy ending.
a bushel and a peck and a hug around the neck,
molly burd |
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[Aug. 4th, 2004|01:10 am] |
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in addition to this excillerating quiz i have had a pretty good day here in aurora. meg and i spent most of the day playing castles and messing around outside. i got to see her school, which, by the bay, is HUGE. and gorgeous. there are these amazing murals and huge columns and great archtecture and aaaaaaaaah, why was i born in a town so unbefitting to my personality and desired lifestyle? oh well, couunt your blessings i suppose.but i DO think i wqas born in the same country. japanese food is so choice. i am going to get most of the recipes ive had here from mrs. g and learn how to make them so i can eat this food contsantly. yummmmmmmmmmm
i saw napolean dynamite tonight with meg, her "friend" brian, and her aurora best friend, shannon. shannon is so great! and brian definitely lives up to all the "yea, he's so hot' hype. as for the movie, i was a bit confused; it was extremely hilarious but just as pointless. so i have yet to decide whether it was worth my time.
ok well, im going to hand over the computer to meghan :
a bushel and the peck and a hug around the neck,
molly burd |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2004|06:10 pm] |
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uncomfortable and inescapable predicaments seem to be regular occurances lately and i am just a bit tired of dealing with them. i'm sure anyone who reads this can relate to my situation in some aspect or another, in that, i have something very important to tell someone but i'm having difficulty finding the right word to say. i feel like if i tell this person what i'm aiming to confess that it may totally disembody our friendship for an unbareable period of time. but at the same time, i feel if i don't tell this person what's going on that i'm not being true to myself or fair to that person. losing this person would really put a damper on my year. a year which, by the way, will be spent in state college due to a lot of crucial decision-making and consideration. there's a song by taking back sunday that really expresses how confused/angry/needy i'm feeling at this moment in time. here is my favorite verse to that song:
the months they don't matter
it's the days i cant take
seconds turn to minutes
and i'm slipping away
alright well i'm off to eat dinner with the guineys and then meg and i are off to see napolean dynamite with brian and shannon...
a bushel and a peck and a hung around the neck,
molly burd
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| my lungs are full, about to choke, the one thing i hate is your second hand smoke |
[Aug. 2nd, 2004|02:48 am] |
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i'm listening to a relatively intersting band called the format. something i bought on a whim yesterday at virgin records. i recommend it if you like cursise, modest mouse, moments in grace, or anything like that.
the real reason i posted again so soon is because im atgtempting to figure out this whole livejournal thing all by myself, which isnt really that smart,w but i'm bored and not very tired. so if anyone wants to give me some advice as to how i can spruce it up and give it a loittle more chracter, i would be very grateful.
a bushel and a peck and a hug around the neck,
molly burd |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2004|01:58 am] |
i am currently in aurora, illonois in the home of meghan guiney. i love it. meg and her family live about a half hour out of the city and its spectatcular. i've been here for about 4 days now and we've done more than i could have expected from a whole summer in good ole state college: spent a day picking out mod furniture for their basement, sat and drank coffe-like beverages (which i am actually become partial to) several times at numerous starbucks, visited a city that is so ecenomically aware and majorly awesome, went to the largest amusement park i've ever even dreamed of visiting, and visited an oulet mall with 4 times the stores of the nittany mall (including coach, versace, zumiez , and more great ice cream places than you could imagine). all in all, i'd say that this is highlight of my summer thus far.
its odd though. as long as i can remember i've wanted, even yearned, to live in a fast-paced, non-conformist city like chicago, new york, pittsburgh, or even polluted LA. and for as lonh as i can remember, i have been denied the priviledge of such a wish, being forced to stay put in monotonously dull state college. and as i am having a fabulous time living this life, i find myself wondering if pittsburgh is really the city for me. i mean, i truely love it, but i'm coming to find that i can't be entirely me without the people that i've chosen to surround myself with during my life in my small hometown. well, you know what they say ::home is where the heart is:: but if that is so true, why did i even consider moving in the first palce? if i had honestly loved residing in "happy" valley then why did i want so desperately to escape? maybe i'm just over-analyzing, but as far as i can tell, i need major alone time to think about the decision to be made on the quick approaching august 27th.
whoa, i'm triple tasking right now.
1. writing all these insane feelings and hoping that anyone who reads them thinks i'm not quite as derranged as i appear to be
2. listening to fallout boy, take this to your grave, on my walkman
3. watching boy meets world (probably one of the best shows out there, ever [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<childish,>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] i am currently in aurora, illonois in the home of meghan guiney. i love it. meg and her family live about a half hour out of the city and its spectatcular. i've been here for about 4 days now and we've done more than i could have expected from a whole summer in good ole state college: spent a day picking out mod furniture for their basement, sat and drank coffe-like beverages (which i am actually become partial to) several times at numerous starbucks, visited a city that is so ecenomically aware and majorly awesome, went to the largest amusement park i've ever even dreamed of visiting, and visited an oulet mall with 4 times the stores of the nittany mall (including coach, versace, zumiez <like pac sun but with way more stuff and better prices>, and more great ice cream places than you could imagine). all in all, i'd say that this is highlight of my summer thus far.
its odd though. as long as i can remember i've wanted, even yearned, to live in a fast-paced, non-conformist city like chicago, new york, pittsburgh, or even polluted LA. and for as lonh as i can remember, i have been denied the priviledge of such a wish, being forced to stay put in monotonously dull state college. and as i am having a fabulous time living this life, i find myself wondering if pittsburgh is really the city for me. i mean, i truely love it, but i'm coming to find that i can't be entirely me without the people that i've chosen to surround myself with during my life in my small hometown. well, you know what they say ::home is where the heart is:: but if that is so true, why did i even consider moving in the first palce? if i had honestly loved residing in "happy" valley then why did i want so desperately to escape? maybe i'm just over-analyzing, but as far as i can tell, i need major alone time to think about the decision to be made on the quick approaching august 27th.
whoa, i'm triple tasking right now.
1. writing all these insane feelings and hoping that anyone who reads them thinks i'm not quite as derranged as i appear to be
2. listening to fallout boy, take this to your grave, on my walkman
3. watching boy meets world (probably one of the best shows out there, ever <childish, but true>)
well, i think i've done enough, if not too much, wretching and ranting for one fun filled night. as meg's dad would say: "would you like some cheese with that whine?" being here has made me appreciate some aspects of my life as well. this family is very appreciative of everything they have and all the great aspects of life. ok. i really am done now.
i was trying to come up with something catchy to conclude the letter with, but i'm all out of creative juices. how about something my crazy serbian grandma says to me when we say goodbye on the phone...
a bushel and a peck and a hug aorund the neck,
molly burd |
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